I AM NOT DEAD!!!!!
3:46 PM |
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Ahahahahahahaha
Wow its been a long time.
So, in these past 3 months ive been up to alot and Ive just been so so so lazy to blog. So I havent.
1. Boys. They are gay. Marlon screwed me over again. And this time I called him out for his shit. That started drama. Then he apologizes to me but doesn;t talk to me. What the fuck is that shit! UGH he pisses me off. Like wtf is your problem boy! Honestly like I ditch school to go see you, please, come on now. I was willing to get into deep shit for you and you screw me over? Can you be any more shallow? Sure, I knew we were gonna hook up/have so fun. But what did you think? I was gonna be slutty enough to have sex with you? asdfghjkl! Your an idiot, and there isn;t going to be another chance with you boy! As much as I wanted you and still kind of do, it is not going to happen again. I do not take shit from anyone, so what made you think you had the right to sweet talk your way into almost getting into my pants then talking shit about me! You know you fucking wanted me, and I know you still do. Thats why you couldn't stop staring at me when we were at that party. Your an idiot for letting me go. and get the fuck off your high horse, because boy, your going down hill from here. AND what the fuck gives you the right to say shit about Bryan like that. I hope you lose his and Staceys friendship. Honestly you dont start shit! ESP when your drunk. You always get drunk, so it shouldn't be an excuse anymore. Not at all.
2. Parties. Those are always fun. I went to Fish's kickback that was uHmayZING!!!! Hahahaha, I was soooo gone ;) lets high, high like the sky ;) Stacey's party was fun though. That was back when me and Marlon were still something though, we kinda went together? Yeahhh, dancing is always fun to do. With friends or alone. Julian (gay) was my dance partner that night. Boyyyy it was so much fun ahahahaha. fun times, fun times. Mari's party last week was fun too. Except the whole Marlon deal. That was stupid. He's dumb. Staring at me all night but not saying anything? Wtf is that haha. He should feel bad hahahaha. Stupid boy. And then Saturdays party, that one I thought was gonna be gay cuz it was a quince. Well, boring was something it wasnt. Thats for sure. Lol. Meeting new people is always always fun. Me and my sister Janelle were surrounded by the cutest guys lol. I ended the night by making out with one of them, he was a stripper from vegas hahahahaha. Lol. It was so sexy, he had a lip ring, and was an uHmayZING kisser. Like it isnt even funny how great it was. Hahahahaha, yeahhhh. Lol. I really wanted to talk to the waiter though. Im not one for guys with moehawks but this dude was so sexy. He kept eyeing me. But neither of us would talk to each other. Boyyyy, he was too sexy for me to talk to. AHAHAHAHAHA, I just couldmn't handle how good he looked!!!! Mannnn!!!! I really should have talked to him though.Oh well.
3. Everything Else. Uhh, I think its been good?
OH OH OH!!!!! I'm on the Twilight DVD hahahahaha
6:54
It's pretty gay, "love at first sight"
GAY GAY GAY!!!! Back when I was obsessed with Twilight, now, everyone just killed it. A bunch of people tell me "omg, I saw you on the twilight DVD!!!!" Im just like STFU!!!! hahahahaha lol
But I can say I was on something. Hahahaha. lol
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it's useless
5:17 PM |
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time and time again I want to say i'm happy. is it really true? I want to say it is but i just cant be sure. sometimes I am just so happy ouch my boobs just started hurting out of no where and there are other times when i'm just like WHATS THE POINT???? everyone sees me as this fine and dandy girly girl who is probablly the happiest girl on earth but i'm not. I'm really not. not even my true friends know how unhappy i can be at times. i want things to change it's just like seriously why is it always me who gets everything that has been worked hard at thrown in my face like it doesn't even matter? On friday i spent like the entire day with natalie, shes my best friend we had a blast like a great blast. I always have a blast with her. and when we were going back to her place i felt like it was MY fault that she got in trouble for staying out later than she had planned. the next day was the psychology car was. honestly it was so fun I had a great time. at first i felt very needy and felt like i HAD to be with my friends but slowly i just left them and went and got to know the other people in my psychology class. mark and analise weren't talking and i had them make up so then it felt like they were somewhat avoiding me part of the time so it made me feel like utter shit. i know that i really shouldn't feel like that but i did. on sunday i just spent the day reading dune and cleaning it wasn't much better but i didn't feel so needy. today was a lousy day just because of the winds, and analise was down so it put me in a sad mood since she is just such a great friend i hate it when mark asks her out because it just gets her all down. she is one of my closest friends and i hate it when she is upset. then we got ditched by nat breanna and aj at lunch so we felt all shitty together but whatever. natie is still my best friend and she explained to me what they went over to the other side of the hall for.
I want things to be like they were, i wanna feel happy and everything, its hard thought it really is. Ugh
Jasmine and I are at a great start of a new friendship so that makes me happy
I really wanna do the People to People thing but the amount of money is a big issue especially because of the whole recession thingy or whatever. I'm gonna take it like it is. If it happens then it happens if not then theres aways next year.
I want things to be like they were, i wanna feel happy and everything, its hard thought it really is. Ugh
Jasmine and I are at a great start of a new friendship so that makes me happy
I really wanna do the People to People thing but the amount of money is a big issue especially because of the whole recession thingy or whatever. I'm gonna take it like it is. If it happens then it happens if not then theres aways next year.
Labels: etc, friends, life, student ambassadors
this is big!
2:50 PM |
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I will post a super long blog. I need to explain MANY things. But it has to way until later. But I promise that it will be posted. Stay tuned!
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Ok Friday:Chilled at Naties, and we talked about EVERYTHING she sang to me, we danced together, talked and had a great time, we went back to the school and met up with Breanna. When it was time for them to start rehearsal I just sat there and watched them until Bryanne and Stacey got there and we chilled outside until we saw them getting ready to go the the football field. We tried to sneak in but it didn't work out very well so we just paid. We watched the football game and eventually got all into it. It was amazing. Our team won of course. Natie says its because the choir was there. XD
Saturday: Went to the people to people meeting OMG I THINK I GOT ACCEPTED!!!! OMG I am soooo excited. Like no lies I really hope that I did I will be soooo psyched if I did. And I believe I sent an apology letter to Jasmine that day as well
Sunday:Lazy day of homework and some talking to Jasmine (we're friends again which makes me sooo happy) watched true blood went to bed
Monday:Officially became friends with Jasmine again and found some interesting stuff out about someone. And whatever. Very interesting. It was my sisters birthday so we went to LA to celebrate. We had a very delicious cake was very yummy. Yep yep. I got sick again so we went home and got home around 9
Today:Skipped school cuz I was "sick" but really it was so I could just have an extra day of studying lol. Haha I have a psych test and I wasn't ready for it lolz
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About AJ, I decided that I DON'T like him but I think that he likes me so it's getting pretty weird. Lol yesterday I decked him in the balls cuz he wouldn't stop hugging me.
Me and Michelle chilled yesterday after school until my mom came to pick me up. We talked about a bunch of shit. It makes me remember why I love that chickie so much.
If theres more I'll update again later =]
Ok Friday:Chilled at Naties, and we talked about EVERYTHING she sang to me, we danced together, talked and had a great time, we went back to the school and met up with Breanna. When it was time for them to start rehearsal I just sat there and watched them until Bryanne and Stacey got there and we chilled outside until we saw them getting ready to go the the football field. We tried to sneak in but it didn't work out very well so we just paid. We watched the football game and eventually got all into it. It was amazing. Our team won of course. Natie says its because the choir was there. XD
Saturday: Went to the people to people meeting OMG I THINK I GOT ACCEPTED!!!! OMG I am soooo excited. Like no lies I really hope that I did I will be soooo psyched if I did. And I believe I sent an apology letter to Jasmine that day as well
Sunday:Lazy day of homework and some talking to Jasmine (we're friends again which makes me sooo happy) watched true blood went to bed
Monday:Officially became friends with Jasmine again and found some interesting stuff out about someone. And whatever. Very interesting. It was my sisters birthday so we went to LA to celebrate. We had a very delicious cake was very yummy. Yep yep. I got sick again so we went home and got home around 9
Today:Skipped school cuz I was "sick" but really it was so I could just have an extra day of studying lol. Haha I have a psych test and I wasn't ready for it lolz
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About AJ, I decided that I DON'T like him but I think that he likes me so it's getting pretty weird. Lol yesterday I decked him in the balls cuz he wouldn't stop hugging me.
Me and Michelle chilled yesterday after school until my mom came to pick me up. We talked about a bunch of shit. It makes me remember why I love that chickie so much.
If theres more I'll update again later =]
Labels: and everything else, football, life, love, school, student ambassadors
Just a bunch of bull
5:23 AM |
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The past two days have been spent doing homework. It's pretty lame when you think about it because I have no life anymore D=
Fuck all them AP classes
Today is shaping up to be a good day. I can feel it. I know that i'm gonna have fun today with Natie at the football game.
Yesterday was the worst day ever actually. I felt so neglected by my closest friends so lunch was pretty lame. The good thing was that I was able to talk a lot more to stacey yesterday because of that fact.
Everyone thinks that theres something going on between me and anthony but there isn't. I don't even know how i feel about him anymore because everyones being annoying.
I still have an A+ in APUSH which is pretty wicked since that class is supposed to be like supah hard. I honestly hope that I can keep an A all year. I really want that 4.5 or even 4.3 for once again.
My student ambassadors meeting is tomorrow I really hope that I make it because I will be really devastated if i don't.
Lets see what else. . . .
I've been really depressed this week so I've just trying to get through each day without breaking down. And the thing is I don't even know why i've been feeling like this. Ugh. My life is complicated.
Though I must say it's gotton alot better than it was last year. I think last year was horrible, I was heartbroken, tramatized by family issues, and other things as well.
Well, I have to take a shower before it gets later because I'm not coming home today since I'm going to my dads so I need to clean my room and choose my clothes and all that jazz.
Fuck all them AP classes
Today is shaping up to be a good day. I can feel it. I know that i'm gonna have fun today with Natie at the football game.
Yesterday was the worst day ever actually. I felt so neglected by my closest friends so lunch was pretty lame. The good thing was that I was able to talk a lot more to stacey yesterday because of that fact.
Everyone thinks that theres something going on between me and anthony but there isn't. I don't even know how i feel about him anymore because everyones being annoying.
I still have an A+ in APUSH which is pretty wicked since that class is supposed to be like supah hard. I honestly hope that I can keep an A all year. I really want that 4.5 or even 4.3 for once again.
My student ambassadors meeting is tomorrow I really hope that I make it because I will be really devastated if i don't.
Lets see what else. . . .
I've been really depressed this week so I've just trying to get through each day without breaking down. And the thing is I don't even know why i've been feeling like this. Ugh. My life is complicated.
Though I must say it's gotton alot better than it was last year. I think last year was horrible, I was heartbroken, tramatized by family issues, and other things as well.
Well, I have to take a shower before it gets later because I'm not coming home today since I'm going to my dads so I need to clean my room and choose my clothes and all that jazz.
Labels: life, love, school, student ambassadors